Goodbye...For Now...

There were so many things left unsaid & so many things that couldn't be said because I was afraid it'd make you more angry. My true feelings were never expressed either because I never got to explain how I felt or what I was thinking because everything was through text and I couldn't tell you what was on my mind & our friendship just ended so fast after a couple text messages back & forth. I guess I'm just going to give you some space and leave you alone because I honestly don't know what else to say and what to do. I still feel like I am not in the wrong but you think I am, so I guess I will accept that. I just hope one day you'll come around or realize that I AM a good friend, but if I never was, then okay. Guess it's just time to move on or cool off. Time can only tell.

YAAAAYY!!

I am no longer on the waitlist for my Office Managment class! I am enrolled into the class now! No more waiting! I just need to wait until Financial Aid covers for my tuition! Hip hip, horraayyy! I can't wait for school! I miss it so much! I am going to focus & study super hard!!

God Bless Me

Today, I went grocery shopping after work and while I was waiting in line, I noticed the cashier kept yawning. So finally, when she rang me up, which was only an $8 purchase, I gave her $10 and she thought I gave her $100 instead. So she almost gave me $92 back until I stopped her and corrected her and said that I didn't give her $100 & refused to take the $92 until she checked her register to make sure she still had the $10. Turns out, she was holding the $10 in her hand still & said, God Bless Me, & gave me the correct amount of change back, which was $2.

In this situation, most people would shut up and take the money and go. But I didn't. Yeah, having more money than I already have would be nice, but thats so wrong. I did a good deed and I am happy. What can I say, I AM an Angel - A. (;

Split Ends

I just realized that I have A LOT of split ends, but I'm not trying to cut my hair because I want to grow it super long for the summertime. *Sigh.

Finally...

A picture of how I do my wing eyeliner for you to actually see.

Don't mind me, I just got off work. AHA.

Learning NOT to Expect Too Much

So, as you all know. Today is Father's Day. Today I didn't really have much planned, besides visit my Father's Grave. I was CLUELESS on what to do for my Stepdad, but I finally thought of something this morning...so I called Vincent and asked if he wanted to visit my Dad's grave today and maybe have afternoon dinner with Richard today when he gets off work & all he did was ignore my question & then say, "Good Luck.........." So I just assumed, sure he will go because his family celebrated Father's Day early yesterday because his sister, Sonia is spending time with her father-in-law instead today on the day of Father's Day, but no...I called Vincent when I was at Boeing dropping my mom off at work & asked if Vincent wanted me to pick him up since I'm so close to his house & he's like why would you? & he's like, you shouldn't expect that I will go with you because I am with MY family right now and I never agreed to going with you. What an ass!! I swear, I'm never going to spend time with his family ever again! If Vincent can't do shit for my family, why should I bother to show up or make an appearance at his family gatherings? It's not fair!

Love of my Life

Through our good times & our bad, he will ALWAYS be my number one love.

My Future Room

Hello Kitty all the wayy! (:

"People say you don't know what you've got until its gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it."

FAST 5

*DROOL. I still can't get over this movie! I'm listening to songs from the movie & all I have on my face is a HUGE smile. haha. So many sexy guys in one place. All muscular and buff. Holy shit. Watching this movie was orgasmic! LMAO.

The Secret Life of the American Teenager...

is getting SO freaking intense & touching, oh my!

Exhausted

So exhausted from a long day. I love bonding with my family though. I feel SUPER close to my Mom's side of the family, even though we don't see each other much at all when we freaking only live 10 - 15 minutes away from each other. Yep, I know. Hella bad at keeping in touch & visiting family. Other than that, I'm on that 9 - 5 grind all this week, except for Friday, I work 1 - 9. Whaaa. Everyone is quitting and leaving Sears. I close and work with the SAME 3 people now. We're hiring new people, but I'm losing my patience training them and teaching them. I just wish we had the old Sears Crew back. I miss my old co-workers. It's not fun without them & it makes me want to quit knowing that everyone is either thinking of switching job positions to a different department OR quitting. Makes me sad at work. :(

Fuckin` Boys

So today, a customer was wandering our store. I thought he was with his Mom because he kept standing by the line, walking back and forth. It was pretty busy, so I was whatever about it. Then when the line stopped getting busy, I shouted that I needed to go to the bathroom to wash my hands because I just exchanged a whole bunch of used & dirty Craftsman Tools. So when I got out of the bathroom, the same guy started wandering & standing by the Kids Department, which has been closed all day and empty. So to be a good associate, I asked him if he was finding everything alright & if he needed help with anything. Then, he hesitated & said, "Why yes, there is something I've been meaning to ask, but I was too shy to..." & He kept hesitating and was pausing a lot...so I was like uh huh...............& Then, he finally said, " I've been wanting to ask if you would like to go on a date with me?" & I was like, hey, thats not a Sears question! LOL. & Then I was like, that was really sweet and nice of you to ask me, BUT I have a boyfriend. I'm sorry. & Then, he's like "Damn!" & Then I was like sorry again and then I walked back to the Tools Department where I worked today & he left, I guess. I then decided to facebook status, "Just got asked out by a Sears customer, but I turned him down, sad!" I see nothing personal or wrong or anything about this status. Buuuut, Vincent had a BITCH FIT about it. He's like whats there to be sad about........................? & I was like, because I totally rejected him. When I said sad in this status, I meant sad for HIM, not me. Its because I hate saying no or turning down people or hurting them. Then, Vincent decided to blow up my phone and go crazy on me and he gave me a long ass lecture and rant about it. I seriously don't want to talk to him at all anymore. It's my life. I can share things with people and say whatever. But no, he thinks its the STUPIDEST thing a person can do and assumes I'm implying something & want attention. I think he's just being anal. I see nothing wrong with the status, but whatever. I am starting to get sick of Vincent. His attitude. Him controlling me. Him being so damn uptight. Just STFU & leave me alone!

I seriously don't understand why we can't be happy or a normal couple? He always has to bitch about every single little thing I do. He should be thankful he even has me. I do so much shit for him when he's a good for nothing. I just want to be with someone else and be happy and do cute things with. Vincent is just too damn over-protective and strict. Can't do shit & he's always a grouchy motherfuck. After he yelled at me on my lunch and lectured me, it totally ruined my whole day. I was hurt, mad, irritated, and wanted nothing to do with him. He even fucking deactivated his facebook because he said he doesn't want to read or see any of my statuses anymore.

Boys are full of disappointment

So...we had a double date @ 5:30 at Applebees today and I offered to pick up my boyfriend at his house since I got off work at 5 AND because he doesn't have his own car AND because I didn't want all of us to drive 4 separate cars to hang out AND because it usually takes me only 15 minutes to get to his house...so while on my way to his house, I was stuck in fuckin` 5 `o clock rush hour traffic! Then, I was just pissed after that because he couldn't meet me up or inform me that he could drive on his own or that there would be traffic. All he said was, "Oh, well you offered to pick me up...not my fault. & We're only 10 minutes late to dinner." Not only that, but I texted him that we're going to have dinner & watch a movie tonight & he replied, "Stinker." Which MEANS he read it and that is why he responded, then I called him on my break to confirm & he's like WHAT THE HELL! You didn't tell me about no movie! I have plans after the dinner, I have a ride-a-long @ 9pm tonight. Like wtf?! You made plans on the night I planned to double date with our friends, he could've waited it out...So we just went to Target to get medicine for Ryan and after that, Vincent took my car to drive it home and get ready for work. & I just went with Ryan & Ngoc in his car to go watch Fast 5. Overall, my night was fun. I enjoyed the movie, although I did feel like a third wheel. But I didn't care because I was so focused on the movie & it was their second time watching Fast 5, so it was whatever to them. After the movie, Ryan dropped me off at Vincent's house so I can pick up my car and guess what...MY FUCKING TEMPERATURE KNOB ON MY CAR IS BROKEN! It won't turn! I can't change the number of how high or low I want my temperature to blow. Therefore, I couldn't even fucking defrost my windshield in the foggy, pouring rain! I had to take the knob off & use my hands to turn the fucking knob! Like WTF, you good for nothing piece of shit!! I swear, EVERY fucking time I let him drive my car or use it, he does nothing good. He just breaks things or things just MAGICALLY fucking stop working after he drives in it! It PISSES me off like FUCK! My car is precious to me! Do you put gas in it? NO. Do you change the oil and fix my maintenance? NO. GAAAHH DAAMNNN! You good for nothing. Such a fucking disappointment, so he better fix the damn thing. I sweaaaarr.